Ugh Really... Sometimes you just can't make this stuff up :p

Dear lady with your shirt inside out,

I realize that I do not drive a perfect vehicle, however I do take pride in making sure that I take care of them as much as possible. So the fact that you have your car door lodged up against my vehicle disturbs me a bit. I'm not saying I've never had the wind catch my door and knock into someone but I am genuinely alarmed and apologetic. Yes, I am kindly waiting in front of my vehicle until you are done loading your car. No, I didn't say anything to you. I'm still in shock that you haven't said anything to me or removed your door. Thankfully I get a phone call... aaahhhhhh saved my the bell! You then close your door and get into the drivers seat. Yay, I get to load my groceries into my newly chipped paint vehicle (please note my sarcasm)!  Oh but wait! That's not all! First you have to roll down your window and throw out your fluorescent lime green trash with bug guts all over it! I only know this because yours truly was gracious enough to pick up your trash. It's no problem really, and you are totally welcome because if you knew I absolutely know you would have said thank you. 

Your grateful to have a vehicle, amazed at God's creation, sometimes I get dressed in the dark too, 

Random Stranger 

Daisy, Daisy

I lay here awake. I'm not usually a morning person, I'm a night owl for sure! My dog (my son's dog) decided to be an alarm clock this morning.  Thoughts going through my head.  Should I get up and go to the gym...well that's a waste of a perfectly quite house.  Check Facebook.  Play my current game- still stuck on same level-need more lives.  I don't dare move for fear of waking the whole house!  My mind is racing with childhood caches. A childhood prayer, Now I lay me down to sleep if I should die before I awake I pray The Lord my soul to take. I'm awake so thank you Lord for a new day! Then my Mom runs through my head! I don't remember her banging on my door trying to wake me up all she had to do is press this button on a toy flower pot we kept in the bathroom.  🎶Daisy daisy up with the morning dew...Isn't it a beautiful day🎶 This now sits in my guest bathroom. On a scale of 1-pure evil if I go push that button right now? ...kidding, it would be my own nightmare to start the day this early.  Next song through my mind the church classic, 🎶Arise and shine and give God the Glory Glory, Rise and shine and give God the Glory glory children of the Lord🎶  I do give you all the glory Lord for this beautiful new day! Thank you for making it a productive, fun, fulfilling day for each member of this home! Oh nooooooo I hear a kiddo moving ;)

Wrapped in His presence

A in the womb, cocoon, coma presence and security experience! Have you felt it, been in it before? Such a treasured blessing! My favorite place to be! I could hear everything spoken and being prayed around me. I was praying as well. I was at total peace. Relaxed to the point of sleeping but not because I was aware (hoping this relaxed state of awareness didn't come with snoring lol) Completely wrapped in His arms, guarded and protected... Completely secure. I'm reminded of 1 Kings 19:11&12, He is not in the wind, the earthquake, the fire or THE CHAOS! He is the calm. He speaks in the calm.  

Philippians 4:7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Pretty Woman

Do you remember that moment. . . That moment when Julia Roberts is in total shock because Richard Gere's lawyer Edward knew her secret and approached her.  That utter shock.  Her past, her present had literally slapped her in the face and given her whip lash.  She wasn't ashamed of who she was.  She was not hiding who she was.  Her trust had turned into a treasured gossip!  Now I know that this is not the most Christian based movie, but lets face it, if you are a hopeless romantic, a daydreaming girl you have seen this movie and love it!  It is after all a classic!  All sins can turn into sermons ;)  Can you stretch and reach with me a bit?  What is your testimony?  No, you may not be Julia, but we all have a past!  Do you share your testimony?  All of it?  Do you know all of it?  (I'm still realizing my true, extremely detailed testimony)  Are you careful who you share it with?  Does anybody care to ask?  I don't hide my life!  Honestly, besides my husband I do not have a close enough friend that has asked nor cared to get to know me enough to actually hear mine!  Then again I don't go and blurt my past out!  I prefer not to get verbal whip lash when that Julia Robert's moment happens and your trust has turned into the next best gossip!  I am proud of who I am through Jesus!  I am always growing!  I'm not perfect, but I am always improving!  If by chance you do here about my life, thank you for being such a wonderful friend!

I Am...

Be still and know!  I AM with you. . . Always!  Even until the end!  I AM your strength!  In your weakness. . . I AM YOUR STRENGTH!   I AM the beginning and the end!  I AM here!  I AM HERE!  Trust me!  Befriend me!  I AM your Comfort!  I AM your Daddy!  I AM safety!  Confide in me. . . always!  I love you!  Rejoice in me!  I love you Dearest!  Cry on my shoulder!  I AM listening!  I CARE!  I CARE MORE!  I CARE MOST!  You will succeed!  I release you from that burden, that struggle, that insufficiency!  I complete you!  You are whole!  You are whole with me!  I have begun a work in you!  I AM faithful to complete it!  I don't go back on my promises!  Desire me, Love me, Want more of me. . . MORE!  I want you to want me!  I need you to need me!  I will guide you!  Will you listen?  Will you obey?  Will you trust?  Have Faith!

Dates

Dates, I'm always amazed at the coincidence of dates. Even more so with birth dates and death dates they seem to connect the world, and the people in it, to make the world seem a bit smaller. What do the dates in your life remind you of? How is your mood and attitude on the dates? Does the loss or the gain of someone affect you each year on that date? My most symbolic/coincidental dates are as follows...

      August 19 - my Step Father-in-law's birthday & my Grandfather's death

      August 23 - my birthday & the day we buried my Grandfather

      August 16 - my Son's birthday & my birth Father's death 

      May 9 - my Grandmother's death & some years Mother's Day 

      April - my Husband's birthday, my Daughter's birthday, my Grandmother's birthday

      August - my birthday, my Son's birthday

      July - my Son's birthday, my Grandfather's birthday

Some times I do... This time I didn't

Standing in the check out. All to much money later my order was complete. Would you like to donate a dollar to such in such to help such in such? Don't get me wrong I donate sometimes but everybody asks so there does have to be limits to it if you are a bit tight as well. So any way 3 kids later, 3 hours from home I . Just . Want . To . Leave . I kindly responded no not this time. Handing her my card to pay for my purchases we hear "I will!" This little boy is standing there digging all the money to his name out of his pocket. He hands the lady all the change he has. Yes, that little boy is my son! I couldn't be prouder such a sweet and generous little man! With tears in my eyes and tear filled eyes all around us I add my donation as well to the order. In that moment I remembered to stop screaming, stop being busy, stressed, and worried and slow down and cherish my children and what a blessing they are to me and others!  ... But then we had to get in the car ;)

Lonely...not so alone

How are you doing? Cranky?!? No...sad, lonely, happy... but not happy, unsure of anything... Unsure of everything

I'm driving
It's dark
Tears are streaming down
Each one is a rolling rejection
A calming release
Change is on the horizon
I hate change
Am I capable of living in the present
I prefer the past
I see my dream
Just out of grasp
I want my cake and eat it to
So close to being something
Yet am nothing
So needed
Not wanted
I'm surrounded by people
Still completely alone
Can you have it all
It's just an illusion

Priority VS. Option

Ok I saw this on someone elses page but thought it was worth the review!
"Never make someone your priority, when your just their option"
Interesting thought in theory, however isn't that what cyber media is all about? Taking the time to possibly connect with someone who may not obviously be thinking about you? On a constant bases though you could probably use it as a rule of thumb! Am I making time in my life for this person and in all honesty just wasting precious minutes that I will never see again? Is this waste of time worth the loss of energy, respect, and money? Something to think about at least with your daily life, whether it be a "in love", a "client", a "coworker, or a "friend"!

Failure=Success

Would you like me to give you the formula for success? It's quite simple, really. Double your rate of failure ... You're thinking of failure as the enemy of success. But it isn't at all ... You can be discouraged by failure - or you can learn from it. So go ahead and make mistakes. Make all you can. Because, remember that's where you'll find success. On the other side of failure. - Thomas J. Watson, Sr.

Memories 12/15/06

I have been blessed over the years to have many wonderful memories as a child, an adult, and know as a wife and mom. However, one of my most cherished memories is the Christmas of 1998. Why you ask? As usual we had put up the tree at my Grandfather's it was the first thing you would see when you passed his house because he had this huge beautiful window on the front. It was as if it was a frame for the tree! All the lights were placed perfectly even apart because he had done them with his exact engineering minded measurements (just kidding, well not really)! Christmas had come and gone and it was time to start thinking of putting it away for the year. So he asked me which weekend would be good. I'm not into taking the tree down. I enjoy them so much! I love sleeping under them and just watching them! I mean how can you not feel at least a little bit of joy when you look at all those beautiful lights twinkling?!? In response I had a brilliant idea let's leave it up till my graduation! He was so proud of me! He believed in me and knew how long I had worked for this achievement! (I'm not slow or anything it was 3 years but any accomplishment endures struggles)! (If you don't agree with my idea of how He felt don't tell me let me live in my ignorant bliss, just kidding) Realizing how much it meant to me he agreed to my holiday terms! So if you drove past his house from Christmas'98 through May'99 you have me to thank for that beautiful tree that was a symbol for; pride, excitement, trust, love, family, and with the knowledge of great things to come!

P.S. A TRUE HEROE IS SOMEONE WHO BELIEVES IN YOU, YOUR GOALS AND DESIRES AND KNOWS THAT YOU WILL ACCOMPLISH THEM!

Peace 1/23/08

Where the soul is full of peace and joy,
outward surroundings and circumstances
are of comparatively little account.
-Hannah Whitall Smith

Appreciate Each Moment! 2/22/08

When I look into the the morning sky, I thank the Lord for all things new
for when tomorrow comes today will be my past
don't regret the day, or you'll regret your past
appreciate the moment that your in, or miss something to cherish
I love this day, I love my family, I love this moment!

My high

I really do Not appreciate rude unhelpful people when you are trying to do them a favor ooooooo most people do not like it but with me it makes a different emotion stir not of irritation but of hilarity because I have the upper hand and you want to treat me with anything but respect I could crack up laughing I really could! I get a thrill when people get an attitude with me and expect something um the answer would be "bahahaha um NO" so that is my rant for the day that is why maybe I am probably the only person who enjoys be yelled at or being talked to rudely I think it is purely hilarious, but still "bahahaha um NO" your loss lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've got a secret ;)

Sweetie,
I couldn't wait any longer I had to take a pregnancy test. Guess what?!? You're in my tummy!!! I haven't told Daddy yet, but I told him that I wanted to have a date on Friday. I want to tell him in a real special way! I'm so excited! We love you!

The beginning

Sweetie,
Your Daddy and I were in Wal-Mart today doing some shopping, we had decided to make brownies for dessert.  We already had the brownies in the cart and now we were on the toy aisle (your Daddy always has to go down the toy aisle, you two will get along very well!) and your Daddy asked if we had everything we needed to make the brownies. I told him that we did.  A few minutes later he asked me again and said maybe I should check the box. So I checked the box and told him that we had everything. A few minutes later he asked again (I was starting to get a little mad at Daddy) so this time I showed him the box and pointed out that we had everything. Daddy looked at me and said do you not see anything in the cart? Daddy had put a baby Carebear in the cart, it had a little diaper on, and it had a book that said how to take care of it. Daddy told me that he knows I want a baby so maybe this will help. That's how much you mean to us! We wanted to be pregnant with you so much! Hopefully we will be soon!