Dates

Dates, I'm always amazed at the coincidence of dates. Even more so with birth dates and death dates they seem to connect the world, and the people in it, to make the world seem a bit smaller. What do the dates in your life remind you of? How is your mood and attitude on the dates? Does the loss or the gain of someone affect you each year on that date? My most symbolic/coincidental dates are as follows...

      August 19 - my Step Father-in-law's birthday & my Grandfather's death

      August 23 - my birthday & the day we buried my Grandfather

      August 16 - my Son's birthday & my birth Father's death 

      May 9 - my Grandmother's death & some years Mother's Day 

      April - my Husband's birthday, my Daughter's birthday, my Grandmother's birthday

      August - my birthday, my Son's birthday

      July - my Son's birthday, my Grandfather's birthday

Some times I do... This time I didn't

Standing in the check out. All to much money later my order was complete. Would you like to donate a dollar to such in such to help such in such? Don't get me wrong I donate sometimes but everybody asks so there does have to be limits to it if you are a bit tight as well. So any way 3 kids later, 3 hours from home I . Just . Want . To . Leave . I kindly responded no not this time. Handing her my card to pay for my purchases we hear "I will!" This little boy is standing there digging all the money to his name out of his pocket. He hands the lady all the change he has. Yes, that little boy is my son! I couldn't be prouder such a sweet and generous little man! With tears in my eyes and tear filled eyes all around us I add my donation as well to the order. In that moment I remembered to stop screaming, stop being busy, stressed, and worried and slow down and cherish my children and what a blessing they are to me and others!  ... But then we had to get in the car ;)

Lonely...not so alone

How are you doing? Cranky?!? No...sad, lonely, happy... but not happy, unsure of anything... Unsure of everything

I'm driving
It's dark
Tears are streaming down
Each one is a rolling rejection
A calming release
Change is on the horizon
I hate change
Am I capable of living in the present
I prefer the past
I see my dream
Just out of grasp
I want my cake and eat it to
So close to being something
Yet am nothing
So needed
Not wanted
I'm surrounded by people
Still completely alone
Can you have it all
It's just an illusion